by Danielle Pafunda
Get the fuck away from me. I’m sick and free.
I’ve puked my heart out and also my other organs.
My liver spills, my kidneys spilled, my blood
turns the color of a nuclear sunset and hums across
the spoiled garden path. I’ve been at these stones
with a shotgun. I’ve been nailing the doors shut.
In any event, I drowned your book in the river.
At the river, two large men grabbed my arms
and pinned me against a shipping container.
They tore your words out of my throat and held them
in the pink arc cast by a security light. Give him up
they told me, and I did. Over and over again
retching into their outstretched sack, retching
money and grief and the look of your hair
plastered down by an oily rain.
When I first ate that rat after I first regurgitated that rat (see Johannes) and wouldn’t you know that rat was high on cocaine and babies (see Scientific American January 2006) I had the tongue of a songbird stitched into my tongue (see Chelsea Biondolillo, see Katrina Van Gouw, see Philomela). A blank spot on my tongue. A salt scar on my tongue. I only speak English. I make a high-pitched whinny at which babies coo (see babies). I can identify tone. You have your search terms.