I Like __ A Lot
Some people are retarded, and some people are sad
You’ve probably noticed there’s been more youtube clips than usual; contributors have recently been ‘granted access’ to post their own. I figure I’d do one too.
The following clip is beautiful — and as facetious my tone usually is, I swear I’m not trying to make fun of these people, or glorify their disabilities. I just found it mesmerizing to watch. They are remarkable human beings, and by ‘remarkable,’ I mean exactly that. They make me want to remark about them, which is what I’m semantically chasing my tail about. ***Please note that the person who uploaded/edited the clip is an asshole, and that the fake ad/sponsor ‘Fart Inhaler’ at the end is a sad and cruel attempt at being funny.
When I was younger, maybe more naive and/or romantic, I would have ‘loved’ ‘CC,’ who loves shoes, as she presumably works with the disabled people, and has a nice positive non-judgmental attitude towards them. As for Ruthie the goth, no thank you, all my black clothes have been washed to grey.
I’ve always loved looking at ‘retarded’ people (sorry but I can’t say ‘disabled’ anymore, that word feels dishonest). It’s like being drawn towards a bloody car accident or a woman with massive breast implants — something horrific has happened and one wonders why god didn’t ‘step in.’ I have an okay life and my body is fine, and fuck, I think god is a dickhead. Maybe it takes generosity to see past god’s failures, or maybe you just have to be retarded.
And yet, as unself-conscious as these performers are, there’s a certain searing truth to what they claim about themselves. Take my favorite, William, who asserts that he likes nail polish at 0:08 and, again, at 1:46. Of course, he’s ‘retarded’ and probably has no idea ‘what the fuck’ is going on, but — and here’s my point, I guess — it’s completely honest and beautiful. I would do better to learn from him. I would say, “My name is Jimmy, and I want people to think I’m brilliant.” You see, that’s the truth, and it’s pretty fucking sad.
This has nothing to do with ‘indie internet literature,’ so maybe I’m taking my liberties as a contributor too far. I just wanted to post a youtube clip and found this to be the most compelling.
Oh, and while we’re at it, these are my favorite poems in the whole fucking non-retarded world:
Tags: special poetry slam