Visit HTML Giant where there’s likely to be a quite good chance that a post contains reference to shame, humiliation, or guilt. Then feel a cathartic release (sort of) since I don’t feel guilty about the sorts of things usually mentioned.
Fear, as far as the “spending time with…family” goes, yes, but not guilt.
I lay in bed on Friday morning and choose a new vice to add to my life. Then I take up that vice on Saturday and try to engage in it for at least one day each week through the rest of the year. If I make it the whole 5 weeks, I get to keep that vice as part of my life. This year is pipe smoking.