May 27th, 2010 / 1:43 pm
Craft Notes & Word Spaces

My room

In three hours I will own a house. There will be a room to write in. A word space of my own. There will be books in this room and a big blue French farmhouse table. There will be a comfortable chair and sunlight. The sounds of birds outside the window. A big hawk’s nest in the tree above. There will be college students next door, and sometimes I will think about how new their lives are as I write, how unformed creatures begin to take form and find shape. There will be coffee. I will make lamps out of the glass jars I’ve been collecting for a year. I will live alone with my pets in this house. At night, it will be quiet, and sometimes I will cherish the silence.

Sometimes I’ll wonder what I’m doing there in my new writing room, all the luxury of selfhood skating away.

Sometimes I’ll be afraid.

What scares you about writing?

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10 Comments

  1. Trey

      your big blue French farmhouse table sounds nice. I wonder if somewhere there is a big blue French farmhouse to go with it.

      recently I was writing poems in series and became afraid to read new poetry for fear that it would change me/the way I write mid-series.

      it was probably irrational/probably not what you’re talking about. really wanted to say how wonderful your table sounds.

  2. Trey

      your big blue French farmhouse table sounds nice. I wonder if somewhere there is a big blue French farmhouse to go with it.

      recently I was writing poems in series and became afraid to read new poetry for fear that it would change me/the way I write mid-series.

      it was probably irrational/probably not what you’re talking about. really wanted to say how wonderful your table sounds.

  3. alexis

      Yeah, the table is great. And, sure, those are the kinds of fears I’m talking about. I used to be afraid that if I went more than a few days without writing I’d lose all ability to write. Which is dumb.

  4. alexis

      Yeah, the table is great. And, sure, those are the kinds of fears I’m talking about. I used to be afraid that if I went more than a few days without writing I’d lose all ability to write. Which is dumb.

  5. Nick Antosca

      Do you have a house now? That sounds amazing. I think I would write better in a house. Or maybe I would be more stressed out because having a house seems like a kind of liability. I think I’d be walking from room to room thinking, WHAT IF THERE’S A FIRE?

  6. Trey

      I’ve had that fear too. also lately that when I finish what I’m writing I’ll never have another idea again or something.

  7. Alec Niedenthal

      Congrats on the house, Alexis!

  8. Nick Antosca

      Do you have a house now? That sounds amazing. I think I would write better in a house. Or maybe I would be more stressed out because having a house seems like a kind of liability. I think I’d be walking from room to room thinking, WHAT IF THERE’S A FIRE?

  9. Trey

      I’ve had that fear too. also lately that when I finish what I’m writing I’ll never have another idea again or something.

  10. Alec Niedenthal

      Congrats on the house, Alexis!