I used to be a videogame designer. I made flow charts. I compared pet games using tables in Microsoft Word. In one pet game, you tap balloons and then you tap pets and then the pets are happy and then it gives you more things to tap. ‘It’s a great success,’ someone said. Then the person went to lunch. Tapping the screen, I felt like my life had taken on a tragic dimension. Then I decided to go back to school. Most people there are younger than me. Sometimes I add a person on Facebook and it’s like, ‘1993, that’s your birth year, wait, I just talked to you in person, you’re a fully grown human being, how is that possible.’
I’ve never been more conscious of my birth year/age. I frequently compare my life in my head to other people’s when they were the same age. If I read a book that I like, I secretly want to be younger than the age at which the author wrote that book, so that I still have time to achieve what he/she did.
Guillaume Morissette’s debut collection of stories and poems is called, ‘I am my own betrayal’ and will be out this Spring.