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25 Points: Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl

The Diary of a Young Girl
by Anne Frank
Bantam Books, 1993
304 pages / $5.99 buy from Powell’s

 

 

 

 

1. I want to write about Anne Frank. I am mid-way through reading The Diary of a Young Girl and I know what is coming. The discovery of the eight inhabitants of the annex, their arrests, their being shipped to concentration camps. Their deaths. I know this is coming, but I do not want it to happen.

2. I have slowed my reading. Normally I read fast. A book every 2-3 days. But I have dragged Anne’s diary out for over a week now to forestall the ending.

3. When I first begin reading, I am conscious of wanting to have some kind of emotional reaction to The Diary of a Young Girl. I want Anne’s writing to affect me, but am worried that the desire to feel something w/r/t Anne Frank is somehow wrong.

4. Not only that, but I worry that wanting to feel something, and being conscious of that want, will actually preclude me from feeling anything.

5. In her diary, Anne makes reference to other things she has written: fairy tales and the opening of a novel. I want to read them. I google ‘anne frank fiction’. The results are confounding. On the first page of results are a number of links claiming that Anne Frank’s diary is itself fiction. I do not click on these links and I shake my head and scroll down further.

6. There is a link entitled ‘Do you know where I can read an Anne Frank fanfiction?’ and I get excited. It seems to me a wonderful idea to write fan fiction. I click on the link and read:

The reason it’s no longer at fanfiction.net is due to a petition stating writing about her is disrespectful and a violation of the rules as she is not a fictional character.

Um, pretty much all else I could come up with involved cross-overs, mainly one about Dragon Ball Z in which Hitler becomes a super saiyan. Good luck in your search, but as the diary isn’t fiction, trying to add fiction to it may take more away than add to her story, sad though the end may be.

7. When Anne writes about her feelings for Peter van Pels, it breaks my heart. It makes me feel sick and it makes me grit my teeth that the two of them will be dead once I have finished reading.

8. Other things that make me feel sick and make me grit my teeth: that Anne was unable to do everything she wished to do. That she wanted to be a reporter and a writer and she wanted to be married and she wanted someone to love and share her true self with and that she was unable to do this.

9. I think that maybe I could write a different ending for her. I could write the life that she never got to live.

10. Is wanting to write a different ending for Anne cruel and in bad taste? Would it ‘take more away than add’ to her story?

11. The internet commenter makes me doubt myself. Have I misunderstood something fundamental about Anne’s story and its existence and its purpose? I am unsure.

12. I listen to In the Aeroplane Over the Sea by Neutral Milk Hotel again and again.

13. But then they buried her alive//One evening, 1945//With just her sister at her side//And only weeks before the guns//All came and rained on everyone

14. I try to talk to my girlfriend about Anne Frank. I tell her that the diary starts in this tremendously normal way. Anne writes about her birthday and the presents she received. About her schoolfriends. And then a few days later her father tells her that they are going to go into hiding. I try to say some more things about Anne, but I cannot. I trail off and my girlfriend nods and then we go to the supermarket.

15. I think about Anne Frank all day at work, and on my half hour break I wikipedia her and her family and the van Pels and on and on and on.

16. I go to fanfiction.net, which I have looked at just once before when I was looking for Infinite Jest fan fiction. I search for Anne Frank, but most posts are unable to be viewed. One that is still available is called ‘The Secret Pokedex’. The synopsis is:

Anne lives on the dangerous side, owning Pokemon in WWII Amsterdam; but when she receives a surprise gift she embarks on a journey that will change the course of history. Crossover between Pokemon and The Diary of Anne Frank.

17. This is not the kind of fan fiction I would write.

18. I would not include Pokemon, or characters from Dragon Ball Z or Harry Potter.

19. I would write a scene where Anne descends from the annex, through her father’s factory, and comes out into the streets of Amsterdam.

20. I would write about her feeling the rain against her skin.

21. I would write about her taking deep breaths.

22. I would about her dancing through the streets with Peter van Pels, their cheeks pressed together and their feet against the pavement.

23. And after that? Anne would marry and be in love and publish her diaries and become a journalist and she would write long, personal essays on various subjects. She would win a Pulitzer maybe. She would travel the world and give lectures to students.

24. I would attend one of her lectures.

25. And although she would be old (if the lecture was this week she would be 83 years old and would have to be helped to and from the lectern at the front of the room), she would speak, as she does in her diary, with great confidence about what it is like to live a life.

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