I think I’ll die in a car accident. I’ve always been been a little autophobic and it has that effect on me, having to drive/commute every damn day. I really wish I could walk/bike everywhere. I really do. You’re lucky man.
I realized at quite a young age that I hate cars and don’t ever want to own one. So I moved to a city so I could bike/walk/take transit everywhere. (Yes, I’m one of those people. And no I don’t hate drivers, I just hate the way we’ve transfigured this country so one has to drive just about everywhere. I grew up in that kind of a place. Also, I did end up owning a car for a while, when I lived in New Jersey.)
I don’t know what I’ll do if I have to leave the city, though. Maybe buy a horse?
I, as well, despise how this country is designed in benefit of the car. I’ve only ever managed to live in areas where sprawl is a big problem. I hope to one day live deep in the city, any city, but preferably NY, or Portland, or somewhere.
ha ha a classic though everybody’s already an ex-parrot
Was responding to “really think […] really think […] really realz”. Doubt that ‘death of oneself’ is thinkable except by analogy.
It’s desperately painful to think of the annihilation of a person one loved who’s died and is dead, but that grief is, to me, a reasonable experience of the thought of that person’s non-existence (and not an evasion of that thought).
One might also experience exhaustion as a doorway to personal non-existence, as a person suffering an illness or injury might quit consciously fighting it and retire from the effort. But still, ‘quitting’ is still an action one takes, and you ask about “think[ing] that [I] will die”, “die” meaning ‘extirpation of the condition for the possibility of acting at all’.
In my view, I will die is, as it were, purely hypothetical.
I’m not even sure that’s the one with the most comments. there was one about tao lin I vaguely remember getting a lot, although that’s hard to search for because a search for tao lin on htmlg returns a lot of posts.